Saturday, September 22, 2012
Tale of a Recovering Perfectionist
There is one giant downside to the conference. It tends to bring out my need to try to be perfect.
Is my agent / editor pitch perfect? Is my one-sheet perfect? Are my business cards perfect? Are my outfits perfect?
The day I arrived at the hotel, I realized I hadn't memorized my pitch, I was beginning to think everything I had prepared for conference was all wrong, and I had a big blemish on my forehead that I was sure the editors were going to be staring at when we met.
But God, in that perfect way only He has, has been moving. It turns out that my writer friends--some new and some from years past--don't seem to notice all the imperfections. My agent and editor sessions have been better than any year before because instead of reciting my perfectly planned pitch, I'm able to have real conversations with them.
In one session led by Jim Rubart and Allen Arnold, they talked about how we can't have control and freedom at the same time. Isn't that what perfectionism is? A futile attempt to control things.
God doesn't ask for me to try to be perfect while I'm here. He knows I'll just mess it up. He asks me to walk into the experience with an open heart and reliance that He's got this.
How about you? Are you a perfectionist? Are there certain things that bring out your perfectionism?