I recently heard the phrase "Nothing to Prove" in a song on a Christian radio station. I can't remember what song it was, but the phrase has been stuck in my head.
I'm a people pleaser. I've been one my entire life. My parents didn't have to impose much discipline on me because I didn't like to disappoint them. I didn't break curfew. I've always been the one who stays out of trouble and works hard.
I've never realized how this little trait has been holding back my relationship with God. Much of what I've done has been about how I can prove to God that I deserve his love. "Look at me, God. I'm (volunteering), (leading a small group), (insert good, but misguided, activity here)."
Someone recently posted this on their Facebook wall: True obedience is a response to God's grace, not an attempt to earn it. - Bryan Chapell
Intellectually, I know that I can't earn God's love. I know that what I can offer isn't enough, but that constant tugging in my chest that I need to do more, to be more, for Him isn't always a response to His grace, it's that little girl inside that doesn't want anyone to see her as a disappointment. That's not the kind of authentic relationship I want with my Savior.
Starting today, I'm striving to live like I have nothing to prove. I only have love and a life to give to the One who gave everything for me.
What about you? Do you strive to prove yourself to God instead of serving and obeying out of love and gratitude?